Our chosen pride is causing our Psychological Suffering Disorder...
...and preventing us from receiving Lasting Healing for it.
If we don’t frequently go directly to Christ Jesus for psychological Healing; Truth+Love it is because we don’t want to. But why?
We who believe ourselves to be a good person, have been taught by someone to either: hate, fear, distrust, or "do not need" Christ Jesus and/or that He is not concretely real in our presence, and think that we are right with NO objective exterior facts to prove it.
We would rather suffer and think we are right, than try something that we think won't work, with no facts to prove it, even if trying it will harm nothing in objectively reality. This is how prideful, stubborn, ignorant, and foolish we human beings are. We have no humility to want, recognize, and accept Truth+Love.
When we don't go to Christ Jesus, it is because we think being wrong will cause us more emotional suffering than any suffering we are presently experiencing, which means we WANT to have our unpleasant, harmful, bad feelings and psychological disorders....
But you say, “No I don’t!”...
So, you think that your feelings and thoughts are incorrect?
Of course you don’t, you think your feelings and thoughts are always correct; even when feeling bad.
You think that your feelings and thoughts are unrealistic?
Of course you don’t, you think that your feelings and thoughts are always realistic.
You believe that your feelings and thoughts are unjustified?
Of course you don’t, you have all kinds of justifications, rationalizations, and excuses for why you think you should have your feelings and why what you think and believe is "true".
You believe that you "should" be having these bad emotions and feelings and irrational thoughts, beliefs, expectations, and wants/desires.
We believe that we are "right" and "justified" to have all of our feelings and thoughts, beliefs, etc.; we believe that our perspectives and attitudes are always and completely correct.
And worse, we believe that other persons or situations is the "cause" of our emotions and feelings...we are blamers!
So obviously we WANT to have our unpleasant, harmful, bad feelings and irrational thoughts, beliefs, expectations, wants/desires, etc.…and we WANT to blame everyone and everything else (including our brain cells), but ourselves (our free will and intellect of our soul) for them…And we want to think we are right about all of!
THIS is why we don’t want to correctly go to Christ Jesus for healing, combined with the fact that we either: hate, fear, distrust, or think we "don't need" God / Christ Jesus and/or that He is not concretely really present with us...Even regardless of how Christian we think we are or pretend to be. Therefore, we don’t want Healing; Truth+Love directly from Christ Jesus.
Therefore, we don’t want to change our emotions and feelings nor thoughts, beliefs, expectations, wants/desires, etc., nor do we want to know if we are right or wrong. Nor do we want to be sorry for causing our emotions and feelings, thoughts, beliefs, expectations, wants/desires, etc. We don't want to know whether we are right or wrong about what is really good or bad for us, because we'd rather suffer and think we are right.
We want to keep sinning (choosing these absence of Truth+Love) because we believe the lie that "whatever IT is", is a good for us and is meeting our needs. We don't want to know how we are making false correlations.
When in objective reality "the sin" (absence of Truth+Love) is both the cause of our bad emotional suffering and the sin IS our bad emotional suffering and irrational thoughts, beliefs, expectations, wants/desires, etc.!
Then there are those of us who think that we know who Jesus the Christ is and what His Will is just because we go to church, without spending daily quality time with Him asking Him directly and waiting and actively listening for His answers and doing proper discernment with external confirmations that we don't control.
We don’t believe the Truth that Jesus the Christ will heal us of our harmful emotional suffering / psychological disorders.
We don't believe the Truth that we are: failing to cooperate with Him, blocking Him, and freely rejecting His Healing; Truth+Love in a plethora of ways.
We believe the lie that Jesus Christ doesn’t want to heal us of our harmful emotional suffering / psychological disorders.
Because we don’t want to learn how to recognize what is a sin and what we have to do in order to cooperate with Jesus the Christ to be healed of them. We fail to believe that our harmful emotions / psychological disorders are sins.
And we believe the lie that our harmful emotions / sins / psychological disorders are our "cross".
We believe the lie that "to carry our cross" means to have unloving+irrational emotional suffering / unloving psychological disorders, including addictions and gender and attraction confusion. Wrong! Sinfully Wrong!
We want to believe these lies because that means we are still right, we can still be selfish users of others, and we still don't have to change anything about ourselves. How unlovingly convenient.
If you really want to "carry your cross"...
Saying "no" to our sins is our "cross".
Working on cooperating with Jesus the Christ to stop our sins / harmful emotional suffering / psychological disorders IS our "cross".
Struggling in doing what is necessary to learn and practice how to become a loving person is our "cross".
Stopping our idolatry of using the material world to try to feel better and instead go directly to Christ Jesus daily for Truth+Love is our "cross".
Stop thinking we are right about everything and seek all Truth from Jesus the Christ is our "cross".
Stop selfishly using others is our "cross".
Learning how to recognize and fully repent of every detail of all of our sins is our "cross".
The majority of Christians fail to carry their "cross" and that is why they are never healed of their harmful emotional suffering / psychological disorders, including addictions and attraction confusion while they sit in the church pews!
And believing the lie that all our sins, including emotional suffering and psychological disorders are our "Cross from Christ", is another reason why we refuse to go to Jesus the Christ for lasting Healing; Truth+Love.
In addition, we, who think we are so Christian, don’t know who Christ Jesus really is and we don’t feel His Presence nor His Love for us because we are lazy, materialistic, and have bad priorities; we don’t want to do the work that is necessary in order to know Him and feel His presence and Love.
Because we think that we are doing "fine" and "good enough" without spending quality time with Christ Jesus daily. If we are doing "fine" and "good enough" then why do we still have our bad emotional suffering and still need our material bad coping? Are we blaming externals for our free will emotional choices?! Yes!
Whether Christian or not, we believe the lie that we don’t need Jesus the Christ in an objective real close friendship every moment of the day. We believe the lie that we don't need to seek Truth+Love directly from Him every moment of the day.
We believe the lie that we only need other human beings to think that we are
a "good Christian" or "a loving person" and for others to "treat us with respect/love"…in order to be happy and feel loved, because we are constantly blaming our sinful (absence of Truth+Love; prideful selfish) emotional suffering on others.
We only want to appear and have the image of a follower of Christ by putting on a good appearance at church and with our friends and doing what everyone else is doing at church and in the community. We don't want to imitate the saints nor become one,..but we want to read about them, idolize them, and think that they are so great?!? What for? Entertainment? Do we think reading about a saint makes us holy? Do we think just being associated with a holy person makes us one? We want everyone else to be perfectly loving, while we fail to be ourselves.
We are hypocritical and fake and have little to do with Jesus Christ directly and in reality, and everything to do with trying to selfishly use other human beings in order to try to make ourselves feel good in the wrong ways; which never work.
Therefore we will continue to cause ourselves sinful (absence of Truth+Love; prideful selfish) emotional suffering and their psychological disorders, which are being unloving toward ourselves and others, until we decide that we have suffered enough or receive enough external loses...and unfortunately, too many of us never reach this point until we are losing our material life on earth.